Below are the three posting I wrote about beginning the battle back from recidivism.
An Important Week
A US Marine Doing Pull-ups. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Today is Tuesday, July 16, 2013.
This is the most important week of my life.
As most of you know, I have been having a
very difficult time getting back to eating a healthful diet and following a fitness encouraging exercise program.
My mental energy has been at an all-time low — I didn’t recover from what happened last year. Amazingly, it was something I never thought could happen to me. It seems so miniscule, but it had an impact on me; and I still haven’t been able to will myself past it.
Therefore, I have made an important decision.
If I don’t succeed on getting back on track this week — I am done.
No more interviews.
No more fitness and weight loss postings or videos.
And, most importantly, no more claim to being a physical culturist.
If I don’t succeed on getting back on track this week — I am done.
I will accept the permanency of my failure; embrace the sloth and gluttony that has once again overtaken me, and I will fade away from the low carb, paleo, primal and fitness worlds. I will delete my websites, blogs, YouTube pages, remove my book from circulation and simply go gentle into that good night.
An Important Week —- Random Thoughts
After my self imposed black out from the online world, I finally went over and read comments, FB posts and emails, on my last blog post. Here are some of my random thoughts on what was commented and written.
First I do appreciate everyone taking the time to comment, and for the support and concern that was expressed. I am touched and humbled.
I went back to square one and reread the book I wrote. I put myself back in the mindset when I decided that I could not go on living an unfit, unhealthy lifestyle.
Yes, I am hard on myself… going easy on myself is how I lost my wellness, fitness and health. Excuses do nothing more than lead one down the path of recidivism.
One of my favorites; diet is more important than exercise — or what I like to call the mantra of the lazy. For overall good health and fitness —
Explaining health during his TV show (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
diet and exercise along with mental energy are all EQUALLY important. I’m not the only person who follows this line of thought, Dr. Jack LaLanne expressed very similiar sentiments.
The posting was not a cry for help; it was a long overdue, honest assessment of where I was at the time, and decisions concerning the future. I wish I had done it sooner; it is amazing of what we can convince ourselves of.
Do I put undue pressure on myself? Nah. Pressure is when I was in the military, pressure is our men and women serving in war zones. The pressure I have here should not have gotten in my way. Stress and pressure are part of life; we can not avoid it; however we do choose how we respond — I chose poorly.
In my posting I did not make the focus my weight; for those who haven’t read my book or postings, I use the scale only as a tool, an important tool, but a tool none the less. I am much more upset about the deterioration of my overall fitness, which can have deleterious effects on my health. Okay, and I do miss wearing my suits.
IF I failed to get on track I was removing myself from public advocacy — I don’t like hypocrisy; If I can’t get back on track and overcome recidivism then I am in no place to promote a lifestyle if I am not living that lifestyle.
As far as all or nothing, you are either an example of the lifestyle you advocate or you are not. I have given over 40 interviews and written several columns and a book, I need to live the life I proclaim.
Why are so people so afraid of the word FAILURE? Many great people have failed at one time or another. It is okay to admit failure; those who never want to admit failure never achieve goals. The point is to learn from failure and move forward.
High carbohydrate and sugary foods are addictive, Yes, that is true — I must be stronger than my addiction to those foods.
I failed my fit lifestyle and diet. Someone suggested I try something new, perhaps what worked in the past wasn’t working. The thing is, I wouldn’t know, I haven’t been doing what I did in the past — well not the diet and exercise that worked; I was doing the garbage diet and lack of exercise that led to Joe.340; so I guess that did work.
Again, I appreciate all the kind words and encouragement, even the criticisms.
One final thought — I said I was going to be done IF I didn’t get back on track by the end of the week. I went silent to give as much of my attention to getting on track as I could — I will try and answer everyone who sent me an email or message. If I missed your Facebook posting, please accept my apology, there were quite a bit.
I am back on track.
Insanity = Doing the same thing over and over, expecting a different outcome.
Practice = Doing the same thing over and over, expecting a better outcome.
Results = Consistently doing the same thing over and over, expecting a better outcome.
An Important Week — Honest Self-Assessment
“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” John 8.32
The most prominent theme in the comments I have received since I wrote An Important Week, have to do with me being too hard on myself. I must admit; this has me befuddled.
The words I chose, and continue choose, are to relay an honest assessment of where I was, where I had been and where I want to go. When we give ourselves open ended time frames, it is very easy to put off doing something until the next day, week, month or longer. I gave myself one week to get back on track — if I failed to do so, I was going to discontinue my public advocacy of living a healthier, more fit lifestyle. Really, if I continued championing fitness while weighing almost 300 pounds, and being out of shape, and doing nothing to remedy the situation —- Who the hell would take me seriously? Perhaps more importantly — How could I take myself seriously?
I take the usage of language, either the spoken or written word, as an earnest expression of my inner thoughts. The words I use, whether they are positive and cheery, or not — are used to convey those ideas, not only to those who read what I wrote, but to myself as well.
I am often baffled at how we as a people proclaim how much we desire and respect honesty, yet, we don’t like the use of words which are authentic. I failed myself for the last year — that is a plain, simple fact! I gained 84 pounds, and the endurance, strength and fitness I earned through hard work were all gone; what am I supposed to do — Pat myself on the back? Should I tell myself — Good job on gaining that weight back?
I remember growing up, it was admirable to display inner strength and mental toughness — Today, does everyone want their hand held? I
don’t! I erred. And, here comes the other word people don’t like to use — I was mentally WEAK! I ate, and ate, and ate, and ate. I consumed all of the foods I told others not to shove down their gullets. Instead of rising each day and tackling my waking hours with exercise, positive energy and gusto —I slept in. I sat around and drank coffee watching Mike and Mike In The Morning or Lead Off with Allie LaForce and Doug Gottlieb. Should I congratulate myself for watching reports of others being active and achieving?
This isn’t about compassion, or lack thereof; it isn’t about being nice, or not; it isn’t about being sensitive or not?
Is it compassionate to lie to ourselves as our health deteriorates?
Is it nice to shower platitudes upon ourselves to the point that physical and mental fitness suffers.
Is it sensitive to stand by and simply watch and behaviors that are self-destructive?
I think not! At certain times it is important to not merely be candid — but to be brutally forthright. I was writing largely for myself. I am humbled that I inspire others; but I don’t want that inspiration to be phony and hypocritical. If I can’t face my weakness, if I can’t accept that I failed, and most importantly, that I have the inner strength to overcome — How can I ever hope move others to do the same?
I could have easily hidden away, gotten back in shape, and most would not have been any the wiser. But then, I couldn’t look myself in the
mirror, I would not have been able to sleep at night and really the only person who would have been fooled by such a ruse would have been me. I had to face the realities that I had let myself down; that I allowed my health to crumble. If I couldn’t be authentic with myself; I could never be genuine with other people.
The opening quote may be considered cliché by some; but that doesn’t make it untrue. Since I had the courage, grit and fortitude to be honest with myself — I am back on track and ready to not solely, and perhaps it is a blessing, once again undo obesity, but come out triumphant over recidivism.
************The information contained herein is for information purposes only and is not intended to diagnose or treat any disease or disorder. The posting and videos do not apply to those with an underlying medical or hormonal condition. I advise anyone embarking on a weight loss and fitness plan to have a thorough medical evaluation. You want to be sure that you are physically able to exercise and you don’t have any underlying medical conditions No guarantees are made or to be implied.************